Chaos + Growth = Change
Can you feel that in the wind? It is change and like all of life change is coming to your favorite blog. That is this one in case it slipped your mind. First is a name change to EmbracingChaos.Net. This is celebrate the new URL- the web address for you less techy types-and also to differentiate this superb blog from others. Next will be a design change that will make EmbracingChaos.Net look as good as the content is to read. Finally I will be moving the blog over to WordPress and be self hosting. This all will be happening over the next few weeks and I promise to keep you informed so as to not lose any of you. You can help in this en devour by filling out the email form on the side-bar. Thank you all for helping this blog grow, it is humbling. Sep. 30 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Can you feel that in the wind? It is change and like all of life change is coming to your favorite blog. That is this one in case it slipped your mind. First is a name change to EmbracingChaos.Net. This is celebrate the new URL- the web address for you less techy types-and also to differentiate this superb blog from others. Next will be a design change that will make EmbracingChaos.Net look as good as the content is to read. Finally I will be moving the blog over to WordPress and be self hosting. This all will be happening over the next few weeks and I promise to keep you informed so as to not lose any of you. You can help in this en devour by filling out the email form on the side-bar. Thank you all for helping this blog grow, it is humbling.
written by Erwin at 23:56
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
In a normal and healthy marriage most expectations we impose on our spouse work to the detriment of the marriage. Think about when you started dating your spouse. You could not wait to see them or receive that phone call ( I know I'm dating myself, it's Facebook or a text now.). The call, although anticipated, still caught you by surprise. There was excitement and you wanted to know everything about them. Now, some of this was because the relationship still had the bliss of ignorance, but part of this euphoria was also due to the few expectations you had, you simply accepted what your new love gave. Now think about the times you have been angry and/or had a fight with your beloved. Odds are that it boiled down to one of two reasons, money or your spouse failed to meet one of your expectations. Go ahead take some time to ponder this. Don't get angry all over again, just analyze why you were angry. I'll wait..... Back, good, hopefully the trip down memory lane did not get you all worked up again. I would feel bad if the dog had to make room for you in his house because of this post. For a little help with the money issue see my post The Budget. Onto the expectation part.
Expectations are fickle things. They are like bushes. They start as seeds in our minds that we like things a certain way. We share these seedlings with our future mates who also share their seedlings with us. We indulge each other and at some point those seedlings start to branch out and become full blown expectations. With no pruning they grow wildly and start to reproduce. If left unchecked they choke out the love that started the relationship in the first place. Think about what an expectation is. You are imposing some duty on another person. Certainly the expectation could be reasonable and even justified, but it still is some duty you are imposing. The other person might not even be aware of the exact nature of the expectation. It is easy to see why expectations cause so much trouble.
Must you get rid of all expectations, no, plus a few expectations are for our own good. We must though strive to impose the fewest possible expectations onto our spouse that we can. This is a journey, not a destination. The reward will surprise you. You go back to the early part of the relationship, where you accept the love that your spouse gives freely and you once again see your spouse as the beautiful person you first fell in love with.
Try it and let me know how it goes.
written by Erwin at 00:19
Had to share this shot with you guys. It was emailed to me. Even though I'm an Air Traffic Controller the sight of one these is still amazing. Especially when it looks like he is clearing the fence by 3 feet!!
Simply chaotic, I love it!
written by Erwin at 00:15
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Just wanted to share this photo with my loyal readers. I spotted this as I was leaving my kids at school, just lucky I had my phone on me, considering it's always on me. Shot it with my Dell Streak which has a 5mp camera. Great phone by the way, Dell recently discontinued it but you can find new ones on ebay for around $200. The scene did not last long. Feel free to use it as wallpaper on your phone or computer desktop, I did and it has been lifting my spirit everytime I look at the photo. Hope it does the same for you.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Of the several activities I participate in the most dangerous is getting involved in other people lives. There is a lot of risk when one gets involved in peoples problems and by consequence you open some of your life to them. But in my book the reward far out weighs what you stand to lose. On the way home from my night shift around midnight I stopped to fill up the car. I noticed a young lady who was in her early twenties sitting on the walk way in front of the convenience store. She was leaning against the wall with her head down appearing from a distance to be sleeping. She was dressed in a goth type manner but not really fully committed to the style. A man that was dressed in similar fashion came out of the store. He was a few years older than her. He bent down and helped her get up, she was drunk, stumbling, feeling no pain drunk. And she was pregnant, about 5 months. He seemed sober but still struggled to keep her upright and moving across the lot. The fact that she was trying to light a cigarette at the same time did not help him, nor me. My mind was screaming-"WHAT KIND OF WICKED IDIOT ARE YOU". My heart ached for the unborn child. As they passed my car I opened my mouth and the only thing that came out was "Do you need a ride?". He stopped and looked me over with tired eyes that were not used to kindness nor trust. He replied with a sigh "Yes, we need a ride", and proceeded to help the girl into the back seat where she laid down and passed out. I did not say much as I drove and outside of directions neither did he. There was a lot I wanted to say but did not. When we got to where they were staying he looked over at my and said "Thank you not many people would do this. I don't drink anymore I had a problem, but she does and I am trying to help her." As he picked her up out of the back seat she woke up enough to look at me and say "You're awesome!" Then they were gone. I have five daughters, two around that age. The whole scene tore at me. What do you think? Should I have been the reprimanding father figure? Would it have done any good? Maybe it would just alienate them further? I hope to run into the again, maybe then will be the time.
written by Erwin at 00:42
Saturday, August 27, 2011
When a gentleman I was speaking to the other day found out I was an air traffic controller he stated "It must be something to have lives depend on your words." His statement stimulated my gray matter, always an exhilarating experience. Are words that tumble out of my mouth anymore important than other peoples? No. The words that any of us speak are important. Our words affect those around us, often more than we realize. Sure, I happen to be in a job where the consequences of my words are immediately apparent, but that does not make them more important. We all would be surprised at the impact that even the least of our mutterings have on other people. We all have heard the stories and maybe even experienced the occasion where a kind word kept someone from doing something awful to themselves or others. Good or bad impact is solely your choice. That smile and "Good morning" you give to the waitress might be the only thing keeping her going day in and day out. Do not doubt it, your words have impact, you just might not have the blessing/curse of seeing that impact immediately.